I am mardhiah born at kkh on 181193
neither a poser nor a backstabber .am friendly and do not bite
Was married on 191108 with md hanaffi
hate spammers .love friendly chums.
Kepada orang yang dicintai , teman2 ,saudare mara dan juga semue orang islam yang sedang membace ini, dhiah ingin mengucapkan ampun dan maaf jikalau dhiah tersilap kate termaki2 ,tersinggung perasaan korang dhiah harap korg semua tetap gembira Dalam keadaan yang sihat walafiat .AMIN.
SELAMAT HARI RAYE!
190909
What am i to you ? Am i like someonethat you want to be with everyday? or Am i someone that you will buy and throw away ?
I envy other friends of mine who have guyfriends that treat them like princesses I envy when my father chat with my mum at times although it was pretty disgusting but it's still sweet I envy old couples that always together I envy when certain people still hold hands till they are already wrinkled
But i JUST do not understand what i want and what i need I just do not understand why am i so furious even if I am nth with you I just do not understand why am i still jealous I am not understanding the reason why am i doing this to myself ?
why do i feel happy and sad at the same time? Why do i feel so insecure all the time? Why am I not happy when it's gonna be Hari Raya tomorrow?
I just want answers am i a failure?
190909
Today is already malam raye ! Selamat hari raye semuer orang ... I just wish that everyone will be happy during this festive occasion . Mardy nak ucapkan Salam lebaran , Maaf zahir dan batin dan juga Selamat hari raya aidilfitri !
To : hanaffi i just hope that you will be happy and always be happy I do not wish to see you sad anymore
ps:I just hope that i will change for the better
130909
I am feeling super down. I dont mean to hurt you . I will always be there for you . I will still listen and talk to you .I will always stand up for you I will always love you whole heartedly, Listen to my heart , md .hanaffi , These words are true . im sorry
110909
DAMN NYER HP ! ROSAK SIA! SPOILT ! DAMAGE AH !
thats it
I am giving him a last chance . I am giving in one last time.
100909
I have been wondering whether i have made a right or wrong decision in leaving you . I know that couples should be patient and everything .But I have been feeling very unhappy lately .I have been having problems and i really need you a lot. Where were you yesterday ?I was really worried sick . I apologised but why couldn't you forgive me.I thought couples should forgive and forget. I wonder where is that sense of security which i need . I wonder what have i done wrong to be this broken . I wonder whether to give you a last chance or not .I warned you before that i am giving you a last chance when we last quarell but whatever it is , I am sorry if i always spoil your mood ,I am sorry if i ever am a burden to you,I am sorry that i am not there for you when you need me , I am sorry if i always hurt you and i am just sorry for everything when i hurt you .
Doesnt mean that we are indicates i dont love you at all .It is just that i really want you to be happy and you deserve more than what you are getting now.
To md hanaffi bin [ insert the name], Ayg still love you a lot!
Just took pictures to cheer myself up . I look kinda funny .The above is just one of the examples . I don't quite understand people around me . I just cannot trust and believe that they will be around me and be there for me when i need them especially those that are precious to me . Where were you when i need you guys ?
Dearest readers, sorry for not updating . I just cannot log into blogger. seriously . I am now officially mugging for O levels .It's because i want to pass lah ,obvious right? I really hope that my O level will pass with flying colors and then i can relax ,maybe get a job,paitaw kejer after get salary and then start schooling. Nowadays , I realise that money is hard to get and nothing is free. I have been making wrong decisions in the past ,hurt a few of my most precious ones and end up hurting myself. I should not have do that and I won't ever repeat that mistake ever again. I am so tired.I have a lot of remidials ,night classes and homeworks these few weeks and I also have to study . I feel as if i don't have life except for studying but oh well,its for my own good. I really miss mates in ctyhall or spending time with cck mates . but i still have time to date with dearest .[boyfriend cannot be ignored mah .]
gt to go ...bye
p/s:a message to some people in my school: I really hate you guys! Hey dimwits, Dont treat me like a dog kaes? Hate me?shut your mouth up and get lost, Stop acting as if you know everything Damn you ,maggots ? Knn nabei @$&()_)*$#!!!!
230909
I am feeling very happy with that someone whose name is Hanaffi
; I learn that everything must be treasured especially the people that love us and care for us
Kepada orang yang dicintai , teman2 ,saudare mara dan juga semue orang islam yang sedang membace ini, dhiah ingin mengucapkan ampun dan maaf jikalau dhiah tersilap kate termaki2 ,tersinggung perasaan korang dhiah harap korg semua tetap gembira Dalam keadaan yang sihat walafiat .AMIN.
SELAMAT HARI RAYE!
190909
What am i to you ? Am i like someonethat you want to be with everyday? or Am i someone that you will buy and throw away ?
I envy other friends of mine who have guyfriends that treat them like princesses I envy when my father chat with my mum at times although it was pretty disgusting but it's still sweet I envy old couples that always together I envy when certain people still hold hands till they are already wrinkled
But i JUST do not understand what i want and what i need I just do not understand why am i so furious even if I am nth with you I just do not understand why am i still jealous I am not understanding the reason why am i doing this to myself ?
why do i feel happy and sad at the same time? Why do i feel so insecure all the time? Why am I not happy when it's gonna be Hari Raya tomorrow?
I just want answers am i a failure?
190909
Today is already malam raye ! Selamat hari raye semuer orang ... I just wish that everyone will be happy during this festive occasion . Mardy nak ucapkan Salam lebaran , Maaf zahir dan batin dan juga Selamat hari raya aidilfitri !
To : hanaffi i just hope that you will be happy and always be happy I do not wish to see you sad anymore
ps:I just hope that i will change for the better
130909
I am feeling super down. I dont mean to hurt you . I will always be there for you . I will still listen and talk to you .I will always stand up for you I will always love you whole heartedly, Listen to my heart , md .hanaffi , These words are true . im sorry
110909
DAMN NYER HP ! ROSAK SIA! SPOILT ! DAMAGE AH !
thats it
I am giving him a last chance . I am giving in one last time.
100909
I have been wondering whether i have made a right or wrong decision in leaving you . I know that couples should be patient and everything .But I have been feeling very unhappy lately .I have been having problems and i really need you a lot. Where were you yesterday ?I was really worried sick . I apologised but why couldn't you forgive me.I thought couples should forgive and forget. I wonder where is that sense of security which i need . I wonder what have i done wrong to be this broken . I wonder whether to give you a last chance or not .I warned you before that i am giving you a last chance when we last quarell but whatever it is , I am sorry if i always spoil your mood ,I am sorry if i ever am a burden to you,I am sorry that i am not there for you when you need me , I am sorry if i always hurt you and i am just sorry for everything when i hurt you .
Doesnt mean that we are indicates i dont love you at all .It is just that i really want you to be happy and you deserve more than what you are getting now.
To md hanaffi bin [ insert the name], Ayg still love you a lot!
Just took pictures to cheer myself up . I look kinda funny .The above is just one of the examples . I don't quite understand people around me . I just cannot trust and believe that they will be around me and be there for me when i need them especially those that are precious to me . Where were you when i need you guys ?
Dearest readers, sorry for not updating . I just cannot log into blogger. seriously . I am now officially mugging for O levels .It's because i want to pass lah ,obvious right? I really hope that my O level will pass with flying colors and then i can relax ,maybe get a job,paitaw kejer after get salary and then start schooling. Nowadays , I realise that money is hard to get and nothing is free. I have been making wrong decisions in the past ,hurt a few of my most precious ones and end up hurting myself. I should not have do that and I won't ever repeat that mistake ever again. I am so tired.I have a lot of remidials ,night classes and homeworks these few weeks and I also have to study . I feel as if i don't have life except for studying but oh well,its for my own good. I really miss mates in ctyhall or spending time with cck mates . but i still have time to date with dearest .[boyfriend cannot be ignored mah .]
gt to go ...bye
p/s:a message to some people in my school: I really hate you guys! Hey dimwits, Dont treat me like a dog kaes? Hate me?shut your mouth up and get lost, Stop acting as if you know everything Damn you ,maggots ? Knn nabei @$&()_)*$#!!!!
Live : For me to know , for you to find out!
Status: Attached
Hates: Backstabbers Liars
Currently schooling at [insert]
Message for all my girlfriends/chums/pals/buddies/mates [ urgh whatever lah ]
: I really hope that you guys will takecare and always cukop makan,minom and tidur
Do not get into bicker,quarells,fights,wrestling,accidents and anything that may
injure or hurt you guys,kae?
Be happy always and smile kae?
