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I am mardhiah
born at kkh on 181193
neither a poser nor a backstabber .am friendly and do not bite
Was married on 191108 with md hanaffi
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What am i to you ?
Am i like someonethat you
want to be with everyday?
or
Am i someone that you will buy
and throw away ?

I envy other friends of mine
who have guyfriends that treat them
like princesses
I envy when my father chat with my mum at
times although
it was pretty disgusting but it's still sweet
I envy old couples that always together
I envy when certain
people still hold hands till
they are already wrinkled

But i
JUST
do not understand what i want
and what i need
I just do not understand
why am i so furious
even if I am nth with you
I just do not understand why
am i still jealous
I am not understanding the reason
why am i doing this to myself ?

why do i feel happy and sad at the
same time?
Why do i feel so insecure all the time?
Why am I not happy when it's gonna be
Hari Raya tomorrow?

I just want answers
am i a failure?